The point is, Carrie, you are NOT letting your therapist down, or causing problems for others. Your therapist is trained to deal with situations like yours. I bet the others you are concerned about would want you to get the help you need.

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archive...ut-in-therapy/
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archive...ut-in-therapy/

Carrie, please print your posts in this thread for your therapist. You are going through a very difficult time. Importantly, you are worthy of a better life. Please let others help you get there.