I am so sorry about everything that is going on in your life. I know it must be extremely hard for you and your children. I think that taking that step to see your GP and begin meds was a good start. Always take of yourself first.

As for the husband, I understand that being raised in an abusive enviroment is torture but I also know that he should not be taking this out on you and the children. It is not fair to your or them. You say he refuses treatment. Has he told you why? Does he admit that he even needs it? The way I see it, raising your children in a loving stable environment is far more important then worrying if this is the day your husband will leave you. Take those kids and live happy in an apartment. It doesnt matter as long as you show the kids and yourself that you are strong and you can make it through anything.

You have come to an excellent site for support. So many wonderful people here I cant even begin to cover them all. We all share so much in commen and you never feel alone here, we wont let you.

Keep posting. We are here for you.

Perhaps seeing a therapist yourself might help you right now.

I wish you luck with this. Take care of you.


Huggles,


Jen