For anyone who read my "unraveling" thread...

T e-mailed me this afternoon He said that we could make time to connect on Monday, and to let him know and he would set aside time for me (for a phone call). I had told him some things about how I am getting through the hard moments in the break, and he said he liked reading them.

But, I think I'm okay now. So, I e-mailed back and told him that I'm good, that I'm getting though the hard stuff that I called him about, and that I'll be okay. Part of me feels like "whoa - I had a chance to talk to T and I'm not taking it?! WTH?!" but most of me feels like "I'm okay, and this is what I want and need for right now".

I'm glad he e-mailed me back. I knew he would, but wow, waiting sucked yesterday when I was having such a hard day. At one point, my H half-jokingly told me "*I* am going to call your T in a minute!" But I practiced with my band this morning and was at my son's baseball games all afternoon...and music and outside are the two things that soothe me the most...so I'm just in a better place. Things always, always shift, one way or another. It's just hard to get to the shift sometimes. And I can't do it alone sometimes...sometimes I need my friends, or my H, or my T. This time, I was okay by myself (with some help from PC )

Thanks for being here, you guys. This is all really big for me, and truly, NO ONE else would get it.