Ever since starting therapy I have struggled with the whole 'self-indulgent' aspect of it. One thing that has come out about me is my attraction to being a good selfless person. My model is the image that Mother Teresa portrays - always selfless and giving.

And that's how I've tried to live my life but I'm learning that I'm not selfless and giving - that actually I have my own needs that I've neglected.

But, the thing is, I don't want to have my own needs. I want everyone else to have their needs met and I can be the giver, not the taker.

It's such a difficult idea to wrap my mind around - that I deserve having my needs met too. I don't even want to acknowledge that I have needs. So it feels very very bad to spend all that time talking about myself (but I do it very well, you know)