I agree with all those who are telling you to go ahead. Your Dr's are telling you for a reason, I'm sure they do not see you as a leech, when my Dr told me to aply I finely said ok, but if they turn me down I'm not apealing. To my huge surprise I got it. I was much younger than 58. It was a blow, but it did give me the time I needed to deal with the PTSD. I was able to learn how to deal with stress, go to ...they were not called part hospital, but it was a treatment on an out patient bases, from 9-3pm. I'm working with a great program now that addresses my fears of re-entering the work force. It may take some time but when you get it, and in your case I would say apeal if you are denyed, you are 58, you have worked a long time. So when it happens see it as an oppertunity to get more ntensive help and try contacting your family. That was the biggest gift I was given though SSDI. For some reson my family seemed to beleive that if the goverment beleive I was disabled, then they had been too harsh in telling me to pull up the boot straps, I made my bed....all of the famior refrains most o us have heard. With the help of the programs I got some of my family back. Not all of them, but some certainly better than no family. I can't promise it will happen for you. But with your Dr's help you certainly can get some help you deserve. You have earned it. Just want to apoligise for the typing and english-I should be in bed, but I hope the meaning is clear. There is nothing wrong with you, you need a break, use it to heal.