My therapist normally checks emails on Sunday mornings. She will send me a quick response with something like, "Read your emails. I am not upset. Everything is okay. I will send you a more detailed response later today when I have more time."

I haven't heard anything yet. Part of me is like, "Thank God! She hasn't read them yet!" The other part is saying, "She is mad at you. She never wants to see you again. You did it now! You ruined it all"

I know that she is not going to say what the 'other part' is thinking, so I need to stop letting that worry me. It is so strange that I want so bad to hear from her, yet everytime I check my inbox, I am thinking, "I hope there's not a message from her!"

My heart is racing and I am panicking. I want her to reply, but then I don't. I know she will. It is just a matter of time. It depends on how busy she is.