i'm going to try talk to her tomorrow about it.but she's been so open and honest about everything,and i feel like ive hidden things from her. i just feel overwhelming guilt all the time.im afraid to say to her that im feeling worse,because i dont what else people can do to help me. im making everything worse for myself and everyone else is trying so hard.i dont know what else can be done ..i feel as if im at a dead end,like im a clutching a straws.

this song has been on repeat and i'm not sure why,but its comforting to listen to