To all of the wise members of PC:

This is about something that occurred in September of last year that I've been struggling with all of this time though I haven't formally addressed it with T.

This is what happened: When I came to college in August my medication combination was making me feel like a total zombie. My T had been pushing me to see this new PDoc that I was very hesitant to see because I was afraid of being in a room alone with a man (I was abused for a number of years by my brother) and was I asking for a female PDoc that I might be more comfortable with.

Eventually I told my T that I had been tapering off my medication because it was making me feel so terrible (no, I didn't stop cold turkey and I've tapered off medication before). And I emphasized to my T that I was feeling better. I gave absolutely no indication of wanting to hurt myself. But my T went ahead and informed the campus nurse practitioner and security. Security disabled my access to any of the buildings and literally escorted me to the health center. When I arrived, my T and the nurse practitioner were on the phone with the PDoc that I expressed some hesitation about seeing (I asked T to give me a week to think about it; I never said definitively that I wouldn't go) and had already made me an appointment with him! Of course I went because I was very afraid that I would be kicked out of the college if I didn't go.

I suppose in the end everything turned out okay: I faced my fear and found a wonderful PDoc that I continue to see of my own free will. But I have never really "forgiven" T for what she did, for embarrassing me and threatening me as she did (being escorted by security in front of all your friends is about the most embarrassing thing, and I already have severe social anxiety).

I guess I'm looking for some opinions of those of you who aren't immediately tied to the situation. Should I just drop the whole thing because everything turned out well in the end? Was T right forcing me to see the PDoc? Or do you think she broke confidentiality by informing the NP and security (and possibly the school administration)?

Thanks for reading!