Causing others pain and not confronting the situation directly that caused you pain probably cannot help you feel any better. You are obviously not a sociopath because you are very hurt and "care" about this and are trying to feel better.

Other people cannot "make" us love them. Our feelings are our own and are information to help us understand ourselves and the world around us. That you developed such an intense, personal attachment to your therapist; that is not the main "purpose" of therapy and may be useful to you as a key to your emotional difficulties. I would find a male therapist and work with him on your intense connection you felt and hurt from her "rejection" of you.