Hey,

i'm sorry you feel so hurt..was it you who ended your own therapy or your therapist?

You say if you hurt someone else the only thing you will be guilty of is loving them...but that's not really true is it? You will be guilty of hurting that person, premeditated pain to another none the less and it may actually just make you feel worse.

Plus the relationship with a therapist is not the same as the relationship with someone else because even going into therapy its pretty much known by the client that they wont have that therapist for the rest of their lives...but in a normal relationship, it is a very real posssibility, so the hurt you inflict on the innocent by-stander is not equal at all - not that hurting another will remove your pain anyway.

I dont think your a sociopath, I think your someone who is hurting a lot and feels angry about that also. hurting someone else wont change what happened and I really hope you dont go through with your plan.

all the best