Makes you selfish?You are not selfish for this.The fact is...you are hanging by just a thread right now.I'd rather see you holding that thread than unrealistically take on a battle that'd break the thread.When the time is right...if it ever is...you will just know...and will feel an innate...unshakable drive to proceed.
Focusing on the things you CAN change is the appropriate war to wage.Because there ARE things you CAN change.You've alot of inner talk which pervades your mind...halting you from pursuing some of these things which are within your power to change...but,if it's a battle....wage a war!!!!

Art...you're dam good at it...do it even though you've no drive.

Writing.....you are well spoken...what could you write on.

Self-help....there is much you can do in that regard w/o ever leaving your home. ( home.everestkc.net/vics/Ronda/RR_Skills_Handbook.pdf )

www.psychologicalselfhelp.org

www.psywww.com/resource/selfhelp.htm

www.selfhelpmagazine.com/

www.healingfromdepression.com/

Amazon Rainforest Relaxation Video youtube.com

Havasupai Indian Waterfall Relaxation Video youtube.com

Self-Esteem: A Guided Relaxation Session youtube.com

....also google self help games

www.best-personalgrowth-resources.com


woot wooting 4 U so-it-goes.....

sending love....

Sayin it's a fight worth fighting!

Also a huge ty for being there for me

Check back later WO.olf