Livetofight, I think I would just be really sad and miss him if I left. I think I would also feel bad for him.

LookingForCalm, I talked to my therapist and it was fine. She explained to me that there are times when she sees I "Feel bad" in the relationship, and people shouldn't feel bad in their relationships. When I see her again, I am going to talk to her more about this.

I made a list of things I don't like and things I do like about my boyfriend. At this moment, it really feels like the bad stuff is winning.

He is a good person. He doesn't mistreat me. He loves me.
But I often find myself irritated with him. Or stifled by him (his personality is huge), like people don't see me but they see him. There are just sooo many things lol. He r uins songs for me on the radio if he doesn't like it, I can't enjoy it either. I don't care for his friends. They bore me. I am anxious around his family, I know, that's a social anxiety thing.

I don't feel like he really sees me sometimes, even though he loves me. He talks loudly in public and it embarrasses me, we have different communication styles and it bothers me.

And another thing, there are things about him that bother me but really I do not seem to bother him.

I told my therapist I need more time. As in, I need more time to let it all play out.