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Originally Posted by aria83
Livetofight, I think I would just be really sad and miss him if I left. I think I would also feel bad for him.
LookingForCalm, I talked to my therapist and it was fine. She explained to me that there are times when she sees I "Feel bad" in the relationship, and people shouldn't feel bad in their relationships. When I see her again, I am going to talk to her more about this.
I made a list of things I don't like and things I do like about my boyfriend. At this moment, it really feels like the bad stuff is winning.
He is a good person. He doesn't mistreat me. He loves me.
But I often find myself irritated with him. Or stifled by him (his personality is huge), like people don't see me but they see him. There are just sooo many things lol. He r uins songs for me on the radio if he doesn't like it, I can't enjoy it either. I don't care for his friends. They bore me. I am anxious around his family, I know, that's a social anxiety thing.
I don't feel like he really sees me sometimes, even though he loves me. He talks loudly in public and it embarrasses me, we have different communication styles and it bothers me.
And another thing, there are things about him that bother me but really I do not seem to bother him.
I told my therapist I need more time. As in, I need more time to let it all play out.
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Hi, I went through the same thing this pass couple of months. I felt very confused about my relationship and unfortunably I ended up breaking up with him because I felt it was not fair for either of us to be on the limbo.
For 1 year and 3 months I dated this wonderfully normal guy that treated me alright but something was indeed missing. I wonder if all this anxiety and doubts are a matter of your depression or your relationship... I'll explain. When I started doubting my relationship I didn't tell him bc I thought it was due to my depression coming back... but it turned out that it was my relationship that was making me nervous and making my depression worse because as I broke up with him I felt a bit of relieve... I actually felt free as if I had taken my anti-d pill. I'm devastated about our break up but the truth is I know I did the right thing.
What I mean with this is that I think you should find some where to go to and think about it all, relax and think if there's anything in your relationship that is lacking or missing... if there's indeed something to worry about or not... and if it's the pression of your relationship that is causing your doubts or if it's the depression...
About letting it play... if I'm not mistaken you have already felt this way before in your relationship? I can only tell you what others told me and what I did when I was the one doubting. I doubted several times in my relationship... my friends and some of great people here at PC told me that I must be true to myself and my feelings and if I had already let it roll in the past and the doubts always came back I should really see if it was something lacking in it and if we could work it out, because if I thought the doubts would never go away I should think hard about me and my feelings and the relationship.
Hope it helped somehow....
Best of luck!!!
If you need to talk PM me =)
