It was a really difficult meeting for me, and when they asked me to wait while they made their decision I really thought they were not going to offer me anything. But they did! They have agreed that I need a psychology assessment, and the appointment has been made for that. They have agreed that I need some support when my counselling finishes and that is being arranged too, and the consultant psychiatrist is going to see me again and make sure I am prescribed medications that work for me. I am so relieved that they have finally agreed that I do need help and that they will offer that help.

The difference in how I was treated this time was huge. When I had to wait outside while they discussed what best to do, I was offered and brought me a drink of water and tissues when I was upset. They asked questions which made me feel they wanted to know and understand what was happening to me and the psychiatrist made suggestions, both about my medication and about other ways I can help myself. I could understand what he was asking and he clearly understood my responses. They all made sure I was OK and that there were no outstanding issues I needed to have addressed before I left. They gave the appointment the necessary time and did not make me feel rushed. This felt like people trying to help me not trying to get rid of me.

Now I feel drained and somewhat hazy, but the sense of relief is growing. Maybe now I will get some help.

Thank you all for believing when I could not.

Caroline