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Originally Posted by whoswho
To all of the wise members of PC:
This is about something that occurred in September of last year that I've been struggling with all of this time though I haven't formally addressed it with T.
This is what happened: When I came to college in August my medication combination was making me feel like a total zombie. My T had been pushing me to see this new PDoc that I was very hesitant to see because I was afraid of being in a room alone with a man (I was abused for a number of years by my brother) and was I asking for a female PDoc that I might be more comfortable with.
Eventually I told my T that I had been tapering off my medication because it was making me feel so terrible (no, I didn't stop cold turkey and I've tapered off medication before). And I emphasized to my T that I was feeling better. I gave absolutely no indication of wanting to hurt myself. But my T went ahead and informed the campus nurse practitioner and security. Security disabled my access to any of the buildings and literally escorted me to the health center. When I arrived, my T and the nurse practitioner were on the phone with the PDoc that I expressed some hesitation about seeing (I asked T to give me a week to think about it; I never said definitively that I wouldn't go) and had already made me an appointment with him! Of course I went because I was very afraid that I would be kicked out of the college if I didn't go.
I suppose in the end everything turned out okay: I faced my fear and found a wonderful PDoc that I continue to see of my own free will. But I have never really "forgiven" T for what she did, for embarrassing me and threatening me as she did (being escorted by security in front of all your friends is about the most embarrassing thing, and I already have severe social anxiety).
I guess I'm looking for some opinions of those of you who aren't immediately tied to the situation. Should I just drop the whole thing because everything turned out well in the end? Was T right forcing me to see the PDoc? Or do you think she broke confidentiality by informing the NP and security (and possibly the school administration)?
Thanks for reading!
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*hugs* that sounds like quite an ordeal. i wouldve been both horrified and terrified!
although things worked out okay in the end, you still feel uneasy (to say the least) about how your therapist handled things and its clear you're not "past" it. i think its worth bringing up....it might be something that stands between you and really trusting your therapist, you know?
do you feel like you are censoring/filtering what you say to her now because of that?