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Old Apr 03, 2011, 03:36 PM
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Originally Posted by Suratji View Post
It just feels so unnatural and uncomfortable to talk about myself for 50 minutes straight and to have someone listen intently to me that whole time. I love it because it feels like I'm finally being heard but it still feels wrong to me.
I do understand.....somehow, I feel sort of guilty at times for getting to spend a whole 60 min. focused on ME, when I have always been taught NOT to focus on me, and to draw out the other person and have mutuality in conversation! Makes me feel a bit like I am getting to indulge a selfish desire/need to talk so much about me, my pain, my problems......but actually, it is a genuine need that I couldn't expect a friend to ever fulfill. So T does fulfill that need and it is a safe place to talk about ME!
My T does self-disclose, never inappropriately, but the fact that she does does make it feel a bit more balanced, rather than ALL me ALL the time.....I get to know stuff like T is an insomniac sometimes and that's why she loves relaxation/guided imagery/sleep CDs! It makes her, and thus the interaction, seem more real and helps me feel less selfish/guilty in some way....I know this sounds funny....
Thanks for this!
PTSDlovemycats, Suratji