Dear Protoform,

Pull up your socks, lad. Delete any ideas of vengeance regarding other, completely innocent people. It will not help you or them. If you can't handle that, you're in worse shape than you may have expected. Your depth of emotional hurt relates back to your childhood, something you have to work on with a T acceptable to you. Emotional adults do not revenge themselves on innocent people. You're quite right being here on PC. This is the place for men like yourself. But PC in no way replaces the need for a real, effective T with whom you meet frequently to work on your problems. If you take your misery out on completely innocent people, male or female, you will regret it terribly in the future when, with your new T, you move toward solving your own problems. Get a male T. Work with him seriously. And leave innocent people alone! Take care.