I can really relate to this. I have been with 3 other therapist in the last 20 years and have emotionally connected with ALL of them. ALL of them are still part of my life (one is a very close friend). When I started my current therapy I didn't want to know one single thing about my T. I wanted just therapy and not a friend. However, as the years have progressed, I see her more as a friend than a T. She is going thru a very bad time in life right now and I struggle with the boundaries of how much to help her. The boundaries have become blurred, once again, and I don't know how to handle it. To think of it as being "fake" is just an awful feeling. I've so struggled with this but feel ALMOST secure (which is a REALLY big deal for me!) in the relationship now and can't imagine walking away.
It's amazing how much therapy can help yet how much therapy is can be painful.
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