A great way to express how I feel "the paranoia". Not much stress going on, as it's something else I'm expecting to occur at any moment. I see my T every other week, haven't seen him since I have balanced out. Actually cancelled this weeks appointment. I really don't think I need to go this week, what would I say. "Hi - having a great day, hope to you enjoy yours, bye" Besides the last thing I want to do is have him "bring up issues" and be the cause of stress. As for the rest it feels like "I can't let go of my security blanket". Guess I'll just enjoy what I got for the moment and hope it lasts for as "LONG as I can keep it".

Thanks for letting me know I'm not the only one that it sits in the back of my mind.