I've got the baby hummers on another screen as I type this. I'm so addicted to Phoebe and her offspring. Those colors! So there will be a final word about time of day for Wednesday? SS, you wrote that there was a time when your symptoms prevented you from engaging with neighbors and sharing your garden bounty with them. How did you heal that? I suffer so much from feeling a shyness, a pulling back from others. I wish that I could heal that social anxiety. It became very acute during a party I attended last night, even though the emphasis was on playing music. I felt inept and it was obvious. I couldn't find the starting note to sing, when they began playing the tune. I couldn't play my instrument. Total brain freeze. It's stressful that they're all very accomplished musicians, and have strong friendships and a lot of history together. Anyway, I was interested to know what caused the shift for you.

It's dawning on me that I've got to learn to accept the problems and conditions of my life and personality, that after so much trying to change, it's just not improving, and is possibly getting worse.