Hi Everyone,

Thank you so much for all of your replies and support. First of all, I am on medication. I take 20mg of Lexapro on a daily basis. It usually works pretty well....but, I have no energy lately . I have wondered if I should try to get my doctor to prescribe abilify on top of it after I've seen some of the commercials.

I have been through years of therapy (I grew up with an alcoholic father who also struggled with major depression and agoraphobia). I'm not agoraphobic...

Anyway, yes, I have, at times, tried treating my husband the way he treats me. If I do or say some of the things he does, well, "it sounds different when you say/do it".

And, yes, I do seriously need to re-evaluate this relationship. Perhaps I should go back to see my therapist. And, yes, my husband does seem to want to control me. I had enough controlling when I was a child. I don't need that in my adult life, too. He often tells me that I act like a child, but I really don't think so. It's exhausting trying to please him all of the time.

Some days are great, others suck. I just never know what he's going to do. I posted about that because it really hurt...but, he does, surprisingly, have a lot of great qualities. I just don't know how much longer the good can outweigh the bad, and that saddens me. I am going to still try to make this work, so it's definitely good to have the support here.

I feel like I'm rambling. But, yes, I do have those voices in my head that tell me I'm no good, don't measure up, etc. Isn't your partner supposed to love you and treat you better than anyone else? He tells me I treat him bad...but, I really don't think so. He only says that after I've gotten angry and yelled at him after I couldn't take it anymore.

I'm probably not making any sense. .