Thanks for a positive post. I'm actually a bit envious of those who can get close enough to have anger, and rupture issues as well as those like you who are happy and close to their T's. I'm so scared of humans I don't know that I will ever be able to be open enough to allow even someone as safe and cool as my T to get in. I can say anything I want-no problem there, I'm not afraid of any T leaving, even my curent one. I've tryed more than a few times to get some of them angery enough to leave but they never do. Changing insurence, or moving states has been the only reson a T has had to stop seeing me. Yet I'm still scared to trust. My T tell me she really looks forward to seeing me because I'm refressingly honest--I told her I had no reason to lie, it would only hurt me if I did. Despite that I know shes fusturated I don't really trust, or let her in. If she pushes me I become like water. It migh sound cool but I'm so much better with animals than humans. I really admire your relationship and your openess with your T. Thank you so much for sharing it.