I'm diagnosed bipolar and bpd and half the time i have no idea what symptoms go with what and what is actually me

lately, for the last 12 months maybe, i'm becoming obsessed with things. not things, PEOPLE. Guys.

I'm married.

i feel like i'm falling in love with people and then weeks / ,months later i realise that i'm not. it's one after another at the moment.

the whole idolising people until they do something wrong and it's killing me and my friendships. i'm lucky, 2 of the people i've been completely honest with and they've stuck around despite everything though i feel ignored by the 2 of them at the moment and completely abandoned but i daren't tell them that cos they have their own lives outside of what crap is going on with me.

is it me? Is it bpd? will it stop?