Inner-yes, I'd rather sever then and there. As in-not go to my next session and leave it there.
I texted her this, and she says it's important I go back to work through these new feelings. Not sure what they are, but I know this idea of 'letting go' has been a big one for me in life in general.

I guess I'll eventually go down to once a month or so, but I almost feel like that's a waste. I have a feeling she is looking to close her private practice too. I don't believe she'll ever leave me stranded as such.
But I guess when we terminate, that'll be the end. She can close up, and won't be available in emergencies. I'd have to find a new T. This is an educated assumption.

What happens when the wheels fall off? Hello, this is Bipolar-there will ALWAYS be cycles. We will relapse.

Oh well- what will be, will be