You say others are worried for you and you are afraid they might call a doctor or something. I agree with the post that said those people are just worried about you. It does soetimes feel like a crime to have any mental health issues, but its not. One thing I can tell you from experience is that if you go look for a therapist yourself it feels less like punishment for haveing intense feelings. You have more control, and can pick someone you like. Start with a therapist, some one who will listen and if he/she recomend a doctor it's something the two of you can talk about and find one who will treat you like a person who has a problem, not like a problem. Please notice I said mental health issues, not a person who is mentaly ill. I don't beleive people are mentaly ill, they have meantal health issues mostly caused by chemical imbalances. There is nothing criminal about that.
Thank you so much for coming back today and letting us all know that you are feeling better. Wev'e been there and I think I cn say that we all care.