Angel21 hang in there. I think the AA literature says "this too shall pass." I may have that wrong because I don't go to AA but I like a lot of their sayings. I have been sober for over 5 years but once in a blue moon I'll have a thought about drinking--it comes and then it goes away. I remmeber how hard the first week was to stay sober--it was painful. But the good news is that the longer I stay sober the less my cravings for alcohol. Hang in there and try to find somebody to talk with during this difficult time.