I've been hospitalized twice over the past year. Both times for the same thing: self-injury and suicidal thoughts. I've tried to stop hurting myself, but I just can't.The longest I've gone with out cutting/burning/any other form of self-injury for the past couple of months is two days. Two days... I'm beginning to think that I'm addicted to harming myself. It makes me feel better though, and It keeps some of the suicidal thoughts at bay. I'm not quite sure what to do from here... if I tell my parents, therapist, or psychiatrist they'll send me back to the hospital, which is just a wast of money and time... I don't know what to do... I want to stop, but at the same time I don't want to stop.
Advice???