Everytime I fight with the damn bastard I want to cut. I can't seem to stop it...no matter what I do it won't stop. And sometimes I really don't want it to. Like tonight.

Another fight about the finances. I'm to blame for everything. So why not cut? Why not cut every inch of my body? It's so disgusting anyways, no one will freakin care anyways. Hell, I'd cut my throat if it'd help. I just don't know how to deal with any of this.