Hey, can relate as well. I hope you stick around, because even though you are in a lot of pain, you are worth it. I don't think the pain you are in is because of something awful you did....we have all made mistakes, its a part of being human...but maybe the pain you are in now is from some abuse that you've survived...we're here for you, that's what PC is here for. It is here for people like you who need to post when they are feeling very down and confused. I hope you give it one more chance.