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Originally Posted by Warrioress
I feel like I've lost contact with reality; like I'm not living in the real world, but rather in a dream; like I'm inside an invisible bubble. I have stopped feeling anything. I cannot love, I cannot hate. I can't feel joy, I can't feel sorrow. I feel like my own mind is playing tricks on me. Today I went to visit the pdoc and he said this is called depersonalization. Whatever it is, I don't like it. It's making me more suicidal. Has anyone had a similar experience?  |
Hi Warrioress. I understand the alienating experience this brings. I don't lose emotional touch much - if anything, mine is amplified - passionate desire to embrace the whole world around me, yet terrified of rejection, which seems inevitable because my experience is so divergent from that of others around me.
The de-realisation aspect for me comes from what seems to be perceptual disturbances. I can't be sure that what I see is real, so I need to stare at it for a while, look around for clues as to what is not real. The same goes for sounds. Far too many sounds turn out to be in my head only. So that puts me on the back foot socially. My pet fish and computer don't look at me strangely as people do, so they are easier to talk to.
In short, its not a healthy situation.
I'm glad you're in therapy and have the opportunity to work it through and develop some coping mechanisms.
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