Angel21,

Good for you for making it through and not drinking and going to an AA meeting. I can totally relate to just wanting to numb out feelings by drinking - the thing is it only gets worse. And the more you drink the worse it gets.

Just a thought, based on some personal experience. Right now you need a sponsor who can be available to you when you need her. If your sponsor isn't mentally well herself perhaps she shouldn't be your sponsor right now. You've got to be able to call your sponsor without worrying about her. That's the deal. Is there someone else you could maybe ask to be a co-sponsor or a temporary sponsor until this woman gets a little healthier.

You might also want to check out the web site sober24.com It's a recovery website that has discussion forums and on-line meetings. I personally find it very helpful.

Hang in there one day at a time.

--splitimage