I am okay but I feel sad today. The reason was because I found a comment that my friend wrote. I like him and I feel like I hardly have any "best friends". The comment was about how they have been there for each other and that they had good times and so on.. My friend is a boy and I like him and the comment he commented his status on was a girl. it made me feel jealous. Now I feel like I haven't got any best friends. I keep thinking sucidal thoughts. After, I cut myself and I strangled myself today. I had a cry when I walked out of the house and my brother and mum was concerned. Maybe I should kill myself, it would be good if I was gone. I feel like I don't have much friends. I feel alright but I'm not too good. I need people to cheer myself up. It's not his fault, it's my fault. He deserves his best friends. I am just nothing to people and I don't mean anything to him. He would tell me I am something to him. I thought to myself, I might plan tonight to kill myself. I'm not going to kill myself, it's just a thought in my head. Strangeling myself would be easy. I like it when I feel lightheaded. But I feel like I need God again. I feel like reaching out to God to help me but something is stopping me. I do feel happy I have other friends. I hope you lot on psych central are my friends. I know I am a attention seeker. Today I probably be worrying and thinking sucidal thoughts /: