I can see that you are in a lot of pain.

I am glad you wrote your post here on PC. But today you sould call 911 or go right now to the ER. There is no time to play around with suicidal thoughts and attempts. Please be good to yourself today and trust that you are reaching out because you want to live.
I know those feelings well but I always try to trust the side of me that favors life. I know you will feel better if you give yourself a chance to live your future.

paintedgoldfish