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Apr 05, 2011, 06:14 AM
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Member Since: May 2008
Location: Alabama, USA
Posts: 1,309
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Thanks Rohag...
She called me again yesterday and left 2 voicemails. She was even more drunk that time, so I ignored her calls all day and haven't called her back. I feel mean to her, but I'm hoping she'll learn that until she can call me when she's sober, I won't answer her. I hate having to be like this towards her, but I've had enough of being soft and putting a blanket over everything, acting like it's all okay with her when actually, it's not.
I had a photo shoot last night and for the first time, I let go of my fear of looking like an idiot. I normally don't free pose or try new and unusual poses because I'm afraid of doing it 'wrong', but last night I did it and some of the images that have come out are fantastic, it's incredible. I'm so pleased with what I did and it's been such ha positive move for me. I've put one of the images on Facebook and everyone is saying how stunning it is  It's wonderful to see how one small change has made such a difference in me.
Today I'm spending the day at home, catching up on things like this and generally relaxing. I've had a tough few days and if I don't rest up today, I'll have a total burn out and I don't want that at all.
I'm still not feeling 100% but I'm feeling a little better than I was. Just hope nothing happens this week to bring me down again.
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