((((((((sugahorse)))))))

It doesn't have to be "tell all" or "never go back"....

What if you went and told her that the idea of taking a break has brought up a lot of issues for you, and it feels hard? And that the issues feel hard to talk about? Then she would have an awareness about what you're going through, and maybe she could help you, slowly, to be able to talk about them.

When I have things that are scary or hard or embarrassing to tell my T, sometimes he will ask if I can tell him the "least hard" part. Sometimes it's something SO tiny that it seems insignificant, but it seems like once I get the "least hard" part out, it makes room for another tiny part to come out. I wonder if you told her the "least hard" part what it would be?

It's really hard to not run away when we feel too vulnerable, but working through those vulnerable feelings is really at the root of so much healing in therapy.

Be gentle with you and your feelings, sugahorse