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Thanks everyone for such warm examples and suggestions. Things are still great. I have a 'steady' work week ahead of me and plan of making it a great week. I did buy myself some tanning tokens yesterday and spent a bit of a time in the tanner "as a reward". It felt great. I'm using this as a reward system. I love the way the warm feels on my body and I like the results. Makes me feel sexier? If thats a good way to put it. I removed some of my rescue meds so I only have a few at a time with me, Feels ok, Hide the rest in my bedroom. And yes I agree with getting rid of the razor blade, I would absolutely love not having that constant reminder with me. It is my next plan. I did move it though so it Layered in objects. I cant get to it fast - I dont know how to explain it...I placed in a mini pouch and placed that pouch in an other bag and then again in an other bag and then in my purse. I know its there but cant get to it without working intensionally digging for it. I thought ok that will be my first clue if I start having to dig for it. I plan on in a few days to move it to my glovebox in the car. then if all is well - move its hidding place, maybe I'll move it enough I will forget where I put it. It's wierd but it's always been "that blade" so the attactment is to that blade, none other.
I also am doing a bit of excersize (sp) every day, just 5 min, and then some meditation focusing on the positive energy in my body and forcing any negitive I feel out. I dont want to add too much to my routine so that I start feeling "Ive got to much on my plate", but this all makes me feel better so Im going with it.
Thanks everyone - :-)
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