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Originally Posted by Suratji
When I first starting seeing T in December, I went in with what I thought were some fairly simple issues and I expected to be done in 3 or 4 sessions. Now, 18+ sessions later, I'm in a much worse place. NOW, I'm obsessed with therapy. NOW, I have out of control emotions. NOW, I'm having a hard time focusing on my RL job or even caring about it. NOW, I'm more confused than I've ever been. NOW, my feelings are raw raw raw. NOW, I'm even less sure who I am. NOW, I'm behaving unlike I ever have. NOW, I don't trust myself at all. NOW, I'm engaging in painful self-absorption. NOW, I'm needy. NOW, I'm dependent. So, should I quit therapy and go back to a normal life? Or should I continue on with this seemingly exercise in futility? Where will it lead?
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Is it really an exercise in futility? What makes you think so? What does your T think about "an exercise in futility"? CAN you just go back to a normal life now? Seriously. Can you forget what you've learned over the past 18+ weeks? Again, what does your T say with regard to all of these questions?
Of course, there's no question about your ability to go back to "normal life." You can do it at any time. The question relates to your ability to get the genies back in the bottle. So you could try "normal life" and if it doesn't work, you could go back to therapy.
You do have a number of choices, but unfortunately only you know enough about you to make a decision. Does your T have any estimate of how long your therapy would last? What benefits does your T tell you will accrue to you from a year or two of therapy?
So, first thing would be a long talk with T about your options and their consequences. You don't HAVE to go to therapy. Nobody's forcing you.
Take care!
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