Is it really an exercise in futility? What makes you think so? What does your T think about "an exercise in futility"? CAN you just go back to a normal life now? Seriously. Can you forget what you've learned over the past 18+ weeks? Again, what does your T say with regard to all of these questions?

Of course, there's no question about your ability to go back to "normal life." You can do it at any time. The question relates to your ability to get the genies back in the bottle. So you could try "normal life" and if it doesn't work, you could go back to therapy.

You do have a number of choices, but unfortunately only you know enough about you to make a decision. Does your T have any estimate of how long your therapy would last? What benefits does your T tell you will accrue to you from a year or two of therapy?

So, first thing would be a long talk with T about your options and their consequences. You don't HAVE to go to therapy. Nobody's forcing you.

Take care!