I find myself reading a lot of my writing to T instead of only talking off the cuff. For me it is difficult to remember at the moment all the stuff I want to talk about or all the details. Also, I can't seem to express myself in the same way or as well as when I take time to write it down.

I did try one time when I was really ticked off at T NOT to read. I wanted to bypass the writing and try to tap straight into my emotions. It was bumpy because I stalled a couple of times during my tirade against her. But then it got smooth and I was able to access a deeper part of my emotions.

So, I guess for me, I don't trust that I'll be able to elucidate well my thoughts and feelings if I don't write them down beforehand. I should ask T about this - if it inhibits my ability to share with her or not. I'm kinda scared to go into session without my voluminous stack of writing.