The past can seem so far away, yet right on your *****. I know how that feels, it tends to suck you like a leech, even though it was years ago.

I'm sorry for the sad past.

I can't tell you what would be best for you since your you, and I'm me.....you know how that is. But I feel there is alot of ghosts in your closet, that need to be released.

I know it would cause trouble to bring up this pain, and it will probably cause more pain...but what I've learned about suffering is, it's okay. It's okay to suffer and feel pain. Life is painful.

I would let all of this out. I would tell your mom and dad about your resentments, I would mention the sexual and emotional abuse. If you let this all out you will be free from it. It will no longer imprison you. The pain is temporary.....then comes the relief from all the horrible secrets you carried around with you for years.

You owe yourself this break. I bet if you were to let this go, you'll slowly over time gain the peace everybody craves in their lives.

I wish you luck, and hope you will gain the ultimate happiness you deserve.

Desirae