To plug them back up the same way? No, not possible.....or maybe possible to plug them back up, but it won't be the same, because now you KNOW they are there. Now that they are there or you know that they are there and maybe have been there a long time, isn't it best to deal with them.....heal from them, so you can move on and live in a new, healed way?
Once, I said to T, couldn't I just run away, couldn't I just put these feelings in a box in my mind, lock it up, put it in a back room so to speak, and run away?!!! She said yes.....yes, you could. But you won't heal if you do.....if you want to heal, you want to do things differently than you have before when dealing with your feelings! She is right.....but it hurts ever so much......healing hurts while it's happening, often. I have feelings I haven't dealt with for years upon years.....if I am ever going to heal, I am going to have to go through the pain I pushed away instead of dealing with at the time it first happened.
I thought I was calm and serene too.....but I was fooling myself, actually....and every now and then, when anger burst through, I knew I wasn't really calm and serene and never had been. Maybe that is achievable for me now, I believe it's more possible to truly happen, to truly have calm and peace, if I first deal with and heal from these feelings, this pain......