I only have a short 50 minute session so every second is valuable. I think talking with everyone here about this is helping me see the value of this hopefully temporary craziness.

I guess what the answer is for me at this moment is that when one starts stirring up stuff, of course it's going to cause some difficult emotions. I'm slowly beginning to understand myself a bit better.

I now know that I need to move by body by exercise or dance for mental health - rigidity confines and I've felt confined. So that's good information that I've gained. And dance is a way of expressing deep emotions in a positive way.

I now know that I need to make time to write regularly. Writing allows me to express myself. I had never thought that I needed that but now it's obvious that day to day activities do not 'feed' me to the extent that I need.

I now know that I am constrained by certain fears. I hadn't understood that fully before. I see that I need to look them at them squarely and hopefully they will lose their power to control my reactions.

I now know that I am not clearly aware of my own needs. Fulfilling others' needs have always been paramount to me. I see that I need to transition my attitude from feeling 'selfish' when addressing my needs to believing that it's o.k. to take care of myself.

So, although therapy has been crazy-making on one hand, on the other hand, I can see its value. (This 'light bulb' moment just happened)

Thanks all for your wonderful comments. They have been quite helpful