(((((cantstopcrying)))))

we all dissociate to some degree or another...we dissociate when we daydream, or look out the classroom window and suddenly find ourselves floating away on the clouds, or when we are driving and all of a sudden and find ourselves miles from where we were last cognizant of being...but i hear you hon, being dissociated is very unsettling...as you say, disturbing to say the least...i understand that all too well...

i DO have DID...dissociate a lot during the day, and at night, but find that coming out of a nightmare or extremely difficult dream state all i want to do is hide from the memories that it has brought forward...

sometimes i have people tell me that i have said such and such and I tell them that I have not said anything like that and they look at me like I am one marble short or something...but I don't remember it...which is really bad...so I try really hard to stay to myself and not go out to where I am not put in a position that I might regret later...so, I am working more on being present during times when I go out, which is difficult when I have those inside that like to go out and be noticed...

if i had my way, i would stay inside and never go out and about to be around people...but I sorta have to because I have my T appointment and other dr appts, so I have to be me when I go out...when Im in the house, it's anyone's guess...

what i guess im saying is dont be so tense about dissociating...you are who you are and there is a reason you dissociate...just go with it...you will understand it when you are ready to see it...

Jewels