Thank you all so much for being so nice and welcoming. I felt better as soon I read y'alls responses. It is nice to know others are going through the same things. I will continue to post here to discuss feelings. To onmyway, I have tried meditation, and writing a journal of all my thoughts. That is about as far as I have gone is coping techniques. I am very open to suggestions. I am planning on meeting with my doctor soon, I know what you are saying that it is nothing to be embarrassed out, but for some reason I am just anxious about it.You know how random the worry can be, even if you know its not logical to be worried about it . Also, I always wondered whether I might have social anxiety problems too, many of you mentioned it. I have always been nervous with social situations and avoid many unfamilar ones, and feel more comfortable listening to people than talking at a fear of saying something dumb/or embarrassing. Only if I do not know the people well, I talk a lot to my friends/family. I always worry people think negatively of me and are talking about me. So I am figuring it out, and hopefully I will be able to go through with the doctor's visit. Thank you all again and I will keep you all posted on my progress.