Ah, yes, but you have the ability to reprogram yourself! Try reading Burns, "The Feeling Good Handbook". It's got stuff you can work through to help you see life in a more realistic sense. Won't make a bad situation a good one, but will help you in seeing a good one as OK for you and save a lot of gloom and doom possibly.

Glad your setting is a little higher than it was a couple of weeks ago. Hope that means things are going better for you, in addition to your feeling better about life.