I'm so sorry you're feeling so down. I hope you can talk to your friend, and make it to where she can be more understanding. The hardest thing about talking to friends about depression is if they don't understand - it might be harder to empathize. I have a friend that it's hard to talk to about my "episodes" because she's never really experienced being that depressed.

But you shouldn't have to pretend. Some people can't handle others, or perhaps they simply can't relate. But don't feel ashamed. Your feelings are yours, and you can't help them. But hopefully, with help from here and maybe a therapist, you can help yourself. You have support here!