(((((Cyran0)))) I'm so sorry.

Honestly, I find that dealing with high levels of chronic anxiety and panic is pretty much a full-time job even when things in my "outer" life are going relatively smoothly. I can barely imagine the ordeal of having this many external stressors hitting you from all sides when you're already in such a bad place emotionally. It just sucks.

I wish I had something wise to say. I'm so sorry you're going through all this. But I know that's not much help. What do your therapist and pdoc say? Do they have any helpful suggestions at all?

Please know that I'm here to listen whenever you need an ear. I'm hoping so much that there is a way for some of these immediate life crises to be averted. You so deserve a break ((((((((((((Cyran0)))))))))))

Sending you much love and many hugs