I come here for a few different reasons:

1. there is no groups here in town that are spcifically for DID. My past therapist was going to help me start one but for a group specifically geared towards and for a mental disorder there has to be a certified and or licensed professional involved and she has a son who like mine is a special needs and challenging child so she couldn't commit herself beyond her already busy work schedule.

2. There is a "support" group here for sexual abuse (be it adult or when we were children, first time rapes or multiple times) here in town but the group doesn't fit me. The way that group is set up it is more for beginners on the healing road: immediate crisis situations, basic no one will fix me vents, underlying competitions of who is the sicker ones of the groups with each person trying to out do the person before them in crisis modes, and In my opinion the way they have it set up these unqualified women are practicing amature psychiatry/ therapy based group not a support group with their go around the room and everyone has about 5 minutes and then they move on to the next person regardless of the situation so that EVERYONE gets their 5 minutes whether or not they want it. If the person needs more time they pull that person aside out of the room for indivdual help to get to the bottom of the problem, and they spend the first 15-20 minutes reading a paper of about 30 rules, most of which is common sense and people learn in kindergarten - no racial comments, take turns, tell someone you are leaving dont just get up and go .. Im past those stages. My focus is more on how to help myself not others fix me and I should not have to be sicker than I am just to find what I need when I need it.

3. I know that there are alot of people who don't have DID that believe the rediculas versions of DID being about possessions, and other stupid ideas protrayed in the mass media fo television, movies, certain fictionalized books.

It was that such nonsense that scared me into denying my diagnosis and refused to stay in therapy for it and then when I finally had no choice on therapy because of my son being placed in foster care I had no choice but to disclose and take care of my DID.

in the process it took alot of weeding through that garbage and locating professionals in the field for me to have the professional truth about what this disorder is and how to treat it. One night I got good and p*s***d off at how hard it was for me and my therapist to find the help I needed in part because of a show that was on that night that was portraying DID as a man being possessed by the spirit of a mass murderer.

I decided right then and there I couldn't keep quiet any longer. If my telling my story helped one person with this disorder then it is worth it. And my telling my story helps to fight the abuse the mass media and DID want to be's do to this disorder and those with the disorder because my telling my story helps one person and that person tells another person and slowly ....maybe not in my life time and maybe not in my sons lifetime ....but at some point true DID's won't have to go through what my therapist and I did to find out what this disorder is and how to treat it because of DID want to be's and professionals in the field that do not disclose certain aspects of this disorder so that they can weed out the want to be's.