Hello,

This is a bit long, but I would really appreciate anyone who is willing to give me some feedback. I wanted to be thorough in my presentation.

History:

About two years ago I started experiencing symptoms in my pelvic region and genitals. Symptoms such as burning in euretha, pain in penis and testicles. After consultation with my G.P. and urologist they diagnosed prostatitis (inflammation of prostate, etc..). Initially I excepted the diagnoses because I believed it explained the symptoms.

After about a year of intermittant antibiotic treatment the symptoms were still present. I had become extremely sensitive to my pain and it led me to depression. It had wounded my sexuality.

Now for the part that is causing me extreme anxiety:

Over the course of the year I could only engage in unfulfilling relationships due to my preoccupation with my pain. Over the year I received oral sex exactly twice from two different partners. After the first encounter I started to associate my symptoms with that of a potential STD (namely, herpes). I presented my worry to doctors and they could not observe any signs during examination.

After the second encounter I continued to worry about the prospect of herpes. Six months after the second encounter I noticed the partner with numerous cold sores on her face. With my symptoms still present and worse than ever I was worried that I may have contracted herpes from the first encounter and passed it to the second partner.

My "problem" is I am unable to stop worrying about having herpes and feeling guilty about passing it to someone.

Although I don't haven't had any obvious signs on my genitals, I continue to worry.

The worry has led to intense feelings of loneliness, fear, guilt, alienation.

I am having difficulty reconciling these encounters, the feelings and the ongoing symptoms.

Any feedback will be greatly appreciated.

Thank you for taking the time to listen.