I think my husband is about to divorce me after 20 years. He said so. He said he is tired of me not standing up for myself, not acting like an adult, not making decisions because I don't want to deal with the consequences. He says he has my back but I don't want to listen. I'd rather drag out situations than deal with them. I often feel his solutions are to aggressive for me.

He says I checked out of the relationship a long time ago and he's at the point where he's not waiting anymore.

I feel so numb. I don't know what to do. I never know what to do...that's part of the problem.

We fight....and I clam up. He asks me questions...what I'm not telling him, why am i lying or hiding about how i feel. I say i don't know. I really don't. Or I think I don't.

I know I have a problem. Thats why I have a therapist.

He and I are very different. He doesn't mind confrontation - I abhor it. He doesn't care what others think - I do. I worry incessantly over how people might react, or if I hurt feelings or say something someone doesn't like. What if someone gets made and me and doesn't like me anymore. It's exhausting.

I love him....and I'm about to lose him.